I heard a new song on the radio today. I skip between the local alternative music station and the country ones – this was on a country station and I thought I recognized the voice. When I got home I triumphantly found it on iTunes as Brad Paisley’s new single “Then.”
You know, it’s interesting to go through challenges with someone, weathering the storms that kick up (and seem to last forever) and then coming out on the other side, banged up and bruised but still standing. Jason and I have had some rough times as we have dealt with his car accident and all of the other health issues that come from being a quadriplegic. Some moments during the last 16 years were better than others. I can think of a year or two that I wouldn’t mind just erasing from our memories because they were so challenging.
But amid the struggle for survival, we have done it. And although one person on our little two-person team has often had to take the lead at different times in order to pull us through, we have done it together. And we are better for it.
So, I can’t help but think about my life with Jason as I keep hearing the words of the chorus of that song in my head:
Now you’re my whole life
Now you’re my whole world
I just can’t believe the way I feel about you
We’ve come so far since that day…
And I thought I loved you then.
When you get married you think you are in love – and you are. But as the twists and turns of life happen and as you travel them together, holding on to one another, fighting the wind and the rain and anything else that gets thrown at you and come out on top….well, that just takes it to a whole new level of love for one another.
Now I see him with our little Coleman – another challenge and miracle to work through to receive – and I feel my love gain yet another dimension.
We’ve come so far since that first day that we met. I hope that thirty years from now, after we have traveled a lifetime of experiences together that I look back and can say with an even deeper understanding of what love really is – “I just can’t believe the way I feel about him…and I thought I loved him then.”
Just stumbled upon your blog post!
“We’ve come so far since that day…
And I thought I loved you then.”
Wow that’s beautiful & so true.
I had recently done an article on marriage, relationships & couples with special needs. Hence, my interest & hightened sensitivity for this subject.
Your courage, strength & dedication is admirable.
Wish you well.
PS. I LOVE your blog title.
Amen! I LOVE that song-I remember my husband putting it on recently and telling me that he had written it for me! Such endaering, romantic moments are rare from him so I think of it with extra happiness when I hear it. It is so true-and sung so well. Thank you, for reminding me of it once more.
Your pictures are beautiful!!! thank you for sharing! I always love reading your blog! I’m glad that you have the loaner van. Miracles continue to happen! Love, J
You two are just the cutest couple!!
I am on my way to look that song up right now! We are just at the beginning of our journey – and to be frank – I am a little scared. But I believe. And I know I love Michael. Thank you for opening yourself up on this blog, Kolette, I don’t know anyone else that’s in this situation, and I find so much inspiration and comfort in follwing your journey.
Hallelujah!! My sentiments exactly! My hubby and I celebrate 19 years of marriage this July – just the week b4 our 20 year reunion (see you there!). In November is 23 years (yay!). And I feel exactly the same. Seeing him as a father and watching him become a man has been a blessing. And I love him so much more today than I did 19 or 24 years ago!
What a beautiful post, and testament to the love between you and Jason. I wish you both happiness always.
Thank you for such beautiful words. I am always filled with such graditude for the privilage it has been to know you and Jason and now Colman. Whenever I look in on yours or Jasons blog I know I will see and feel a little of heaven here on earth. Love you three…
Found your project 365 stuff. You are amazing and inspring. I missed out on the kit, but have been trying to do it myself. Wondering if there is any way you could share some of the papers (for journaling/ dates) that weren’t avialable in the free download. I think there were only 4. You seem to have a special gift, always sharing wonderful downloads and all. Just thought I’d ask. Your book looks great!
Thanks for the comment, Alicia – unfortunately, since I was not the designer of the kit to begin with I won’t be able to share any downloads from it. All of the downloads I offer on my blog are my own original designs that are copyrighted by me. You’ll have to ask Becky Higgins for more designs for the kit.
Enjoy the 365 process!
What a beautiful post! I had not heard this song before, but I LOVE it!